Beyond my control

I wanted badly to attend kung fu class today because i haven't done so in the past one week and i missed it but heaven decided to pour and pour, and pour .. Maybe God is telling me something --> "hey you down there, just because you wanted something so badly, doesn't mean i'm gonna give it to you ... i'm still in control up here ..."

Of course my pastor would probably tell me that it is blasphemy and that our God is a good, loving and generous father especially when it comes to his children. but what if his kids haven't been all good and faithful? well, that's why you have grace & mercy ...

Anyway, just to prove a point that i can plan until the cows come home, sometimes i need the divine consent to make things come true. like i told someone before, i can only do my best and leave the rest to the above. at the end of the day, he decides whether to rain or shine.