"Bad" days

I usually try very hard to look on the bright side of things but this week has been a stream of one bad thing after another. there were some gleams of rainbow but they didn't last long enough to make an impression.

Today i was so absent-minded that i almost lost my car's petrol cap. thankfully i found it dropped into my boot instead of falling off the road, which is worst since it might just be lost. then, i had that awkward moment with the post office officer because i didn't have enough money in my wallet to pay for the postage that came up to some RM20 -- yup, i usually don't carry more than RM50 with me for safety reason.

Of course the biggest setback of the week is being told that i wasn't good enough yet. not exactly the first time but i thought i had improved and become a better person. well guess not. at least not sufficient to meet the mark. it's a lot of ego-biting and getting a reality check on myself. perhaps this is God's way of saying that i can't always have my way of things. or perhaps it's His way of disallowing me from falling into a dilemma afterwards. or maybe i put too much blame on Him and should just reflect on how i could improve myself. for the moment, i rather sulk and be misrable about it.